Its been some time since I’ve harbored such a feeling towards someone. The last time I remembered doing that is back then when I was too young. Actually I just want to find closure to this issue and move on before my promotional exams arrive and take up all my time. I realised that this lovesick habit and the attitude that come with it is just unbearable and starting to affect me significantly one way or another. Maybe love and relationships are not meant for me…
Ying Yan, although you never show it, somehow I felt that you already knew of my feelings towards you. But it seems obvious that there is no way that I could be more than a friend to you. Furthermore, we’re just technically two different people. Although I’ve tried to hide this feeling of mine, somehow some people have found out about it. But this time I will come clean about this. Of course I do like you a lot…you’re pretty and cute, from your long hair to your sweet smile…and you’re a nice-hearted girl. I have already liked you just the way you are all this while. I do really wished that you will be my girlfriend…but maybe it was not meant to be…
Yup…maybe I should just move on before I get my heart broken even further. Now that I’ve expressed my feelings openly, at least I feel little bit better inside. Life must go on and I should stop putting hopes that something will happen. I should have known that in love…fantasies do exist but miracles never exist.