Fall from grace

   I don't know how to start up this blog anymore, and it's been two months ever since I last touched this blog. I've simply grew tired of updating about my life down here whereas I can live it. But then sometimes, when you just can find that time and space (and boredom too), you are still able to do some things at the sidelines. So, it took me some time off my sleep, some Ed Sheeran songs playing at the background and some inspiration to refresh my blog.

   Life updates. Hmm.. there's nothing much to update about emotionally. But the situation's getting much better now with the financial grants being approved, 2 tutees in the bag for some extra income and my rank pay getting it's well deserved increase by July. As for my studies, it's improving gradually with more practices being done on all my subjects across the board. I've already submitted the application for a second shot at the A's this November. Many had actually second guessed me going through with this "insane" move, but I have only myself to believe this time round. And it does not help when see your fellow friend falling from grace in the recent A' level results.

   Swan had been confident about scoring well this time round for the A's, if not at least getting into a uni this time round. What more choice does he have, after repeating 1 more year of junior college? Well I knew that he had fallen once after that fiasco with Kylie (What do you expect? She is naturally a flirt anyway..). But, never did I expect him to fall again, this time thanks to Lynn. I'd already knew he had a thing for her but I was sure that he wouldn't put his studies into jeopardy again this time round. But it was already inevitable. Many of the guys actually confessed seeing him putting everything he's got for the exams. But in the end, it was him storming out of the hall barely seconds after he's got the results (not to mention the double blow after seeing Lynn coming to the results with her boyfriend. Yes, her boyfriend...). His grades - C,D,E,E,C. What caught me by surprise was the fact that he scored an "E" for his GP, whereas his proficiency in GP were far superior than mine. So his only ways out? SAT in the Brunei with his Dad or going into the military and dying at the front-line. What scares me the most is the idea that I could also wind up like him if I failed again this time. Oh boy...

   On the other hand (and the side of the hall too), it was Celine celebrating her success in getting some good grades in the exams (Yah, YY was there but f**k care about her ah...) and even better my grade for Geography - A. So maybe there's hope for humanity afterall...

   So there are many other things that had happened like my up rank for the first time, guys ORDing and the roller-coaster ride of my life. And here we are in April, 1/4 of the year gone. With only 7 months left before the repeat of the A's, the plans and formations had been set. Study plans had been constructed and equipment are set in place. I am not going down this time round, Insyallah. And yup, till my next update. :))

P.S : If there's one song I can give to you Swan, it would be this. Hope you never read this blog lololol!!! :P