It has take me 6 months to realise what I really want in life. It was not about her or the social circle I've been trying to get in all this while. It was success. Oh...I should have known this all this while. It was a huge mistake for me to chase after her whereas she doesn't even reciprocate my feelings at all. Yes..I do like her but I am now going to make a stand. I am going to do whats right for myself and everyone who have been supporting me all this while.
I have wasted too much time trying to fit in that I have lost the sense in me to fight for what I truly want in my life. Why didn't I realise that my identity and goal is to fight harder in my studies and not to let everyone, especially my family and teachers who have been supporting me all the way down. Its time forme to come clean and mend my mistakes before its too late. I've been lost too long until I never see the light in front of me.
Ying Yan..I guess you already know that I like you a lot and it is too obvious. But I guess I've given up chasing you now as...well you didn't reciprocate my feelings back. I guess it is already my destiny to fight and pursue my studies until I fulfil my objective...to make my family life better again. There is no place for love in me...just me and my dreams.
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