Hmm...

Sometimes I wonder why of all people I was immediately attracted to her. Maybe it is because I thought she was more of a friend…someone who I could share things together. Not many knew of this because I’m sure that if she had found out of my feeling, she would not be able to accept it and might avoid me completely. She only regarded me as her friend. Moreover I’m certain that she already had an admirer or even a boyfriend. However, my instincts told me otherwise…that she may somehow found out or even known about it…and that she doesn’t want to reciprocate my feelings.

I began to like her ever since the day I met her back then at the GP lecture. But looking at the situation right now, it seems quite impossible for us to even be close friends…not mentioning any feelings involved. All she does upon seeing me is just saying “hi”s and “bye“s. I wished we could at least have frequent friendly talks or go home together since we are living nearby. But once again all this are very unlikely.

Maybe I should just appreciate the fact that she still wants to be friends with me. I remember how hard it is to get her to start talking to me. Anyway, if there is anything else, my responsibilities had forced me to disregard my feelings in order for me to achieve the success I wanted. Only time will tell whether she will start talking to me again like we once do or even be close to me again. On my part, I can only hope that what happens in the future is what’s best for everyone.