Happy Chinese New Year everyone! Its February already and soon enough the A's will come and so will the year end again. As much as life have been not too great for me in the past year, this year offers hope for me. It is just 2 months that pass and I'm experiencing a different kind of life. Moving into a new town...making new friends...changing my life direction...and also trying to start over again with her not on my mind. About her...its all about her isn't it?
"As much as it hurts me to say this...but she had already move on with a new guy. Just give up on her. She's not worth it...". As much as I tried, I will never be able to forget her. Maybe I could avoid her...maybe I could concentrate on my life...maybe I could move on but...I couldn't forget her. How stupid can I be?? Just look at me, I'm not handsome, smart or even socially active. I'm just...imperfect. I've lost hope on love. Maybe I'm destined for something..not someone...even if everyone said otherwise. "I'm not looking for a girlfriend...I'm looking for a true friend to share my laughters and tears with...".
Deep inside my heart holds a feeling...although vague but so strong...that the life I'm living now will be even better in the future. That all these changes is for the better good. Like a message from Him...to persevere in His path, finding Him and success will be yours. "Oh God...I really want to believe that this will all end well. I really pray hard that it will be better this time. Please make me strong to face whatever that comes...for I was never strong...for I was stupid all the time. I really need You to go through all this. Please be there for me no matter what...".
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