Its the end of February and things can never get any worse. I'm now fighting on both fronts, my school and my family. To make things worse, I'm repeating the same old mistakes all over again. I am also sick and tired complaining all the time about how miserable my life is. Sometimes I wished that I was living a normal life but that will mean i would not have succeeded this far. All I want was my life to be much more simpler and easier to be lived.
Easier said than done...that's how i would define my situation. It is very easy to suggest that I should have been more friendly and socialising with everyone in school. It is even simple to give ideas on how to circumvent the problems I'm facing right now. Let me list down the problems I'm facing right now...failing GP and possibly failing it even frequently...being very left behind in my studies...still in love with "YY"...not knowing how to communicate with my peers in a more "socialising" manner...making mistakes I should have eradicated ...and to top it all off, I just can't seem to please my mom all the time! I have vowed to be different this year by changing my ways but from the looks of it, I'm just being more worse off than before.
Somehow once again I'm just hoping that this will all end well. I'm not sure how I am going to achieve that but all I could do now is to continue surviving. With only 8 months or less left to the big day, my situation could never be any more than bad. There must be a way out...its just that I'm unsure where it is and where it may take me to. Hopefully there is still some light at the end of the tunnel for someone like me.
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