Ultimatum

   Its been some time since my last post and new situations have cropped up since. As usual,  I've been wanting to update my blog but I've always run out of time. Moreover, with the second prelims coming up, I've found myself at the same standstill I was once before.
   It has never been about how much time I've invested in my studies or how well I've did in my tests or exams, it all bogs down to how my attitude and habits was all this while. I've already know both my strenghts and weaknesses in the academic field...but what determines it all is how I've treated both the people around me, inclusive of my family, and Him.  My mind was brought back to the "lecture" I've been give from mom 3 days ago. She claimed that I've changed to the worse nowadays and that I've not given her the due respect she ought to receive. Initially, I've objected boldly...clearly reminded of all the past mistakes my mom have committed and how irrational was the words coming out of her mouth. But..then again she was right. I wasn't the same person I was 2 years ago. I'm beginning to assimilate myself into the once cocky and stupid me a long time before.
   I've made mistakes...I've crossed my boundaries and there lies the consequences in front of me. Deep in my heart was the hope that somehow that wasn't true and that I was still as good as before . On the other hand, I felt "betrayed" by aunties and friends, including my counselor,  claiming that I've been the best son one could ever had. it was clear that my mom is hurt because of my attitude and like I once said...there are serious implications to that. On the flip-side, I'm sure that I wasn't destined here by Him just to wind up failing my family in the end. But somehow...her words came through me like a stern warning...loudhailing from God himself...that if I don't steer back in time, I might get lost in the abyss forever.
   The second round of exams coming soon and I'm now confronted with an ultimatum. I know that I've never been the best of people around nor someone who never committed a sin before. If there's a time for me to decide on who I really want to be...now or in the future, now would be the best time to do so as there's no turning back thereafter. I don't want to regret the decisions that I make now. At the end of the day, I'm just an ordinary guy in search of my destiny in this God-forsaken world...
   On another note, this might be one of the few chances I've got to update you guys as a war is about to begin. Dark clouds are approaching and this time it's me against the world. I was never prepared for this (the others are no different either) and I will never be. To everyone, good luck and give it the best shot that you can and then lets cheer for the outcome!!!<3