Halfway gone

   It's the 9th week already and so many things have passed. Here we are now at the BRT stage, waiting for the next fit-intake to come in and watching some of my bunkmates crossing over to SCC. Seriously, if I could blog every moment captured in the bunk and the field, I would have gladly done so. And blabbering long-winded stories about everything that happens in camp would just spoil the fun of it. So where do I start, as there's too many things that crossed my mind throughout these weeks, but too little time to tell?

   Nobody said that NS is going to be easy. I've already understood that since the first day I've stepped into NSTI, cleared up my area and bunk and joined my platoon for the first time. It becomes more complex when I still have 2 cases pending behind my back, with a possibility of getting charged and losing my future altogether. So my mindset was to change everything within these 2 years of NS with the hope that my future still exist. Throughout the 9 weeks, my relationship with my platoon mates and bunkmates has been somewhat on a rough patch. Deemed "Blur c***", "Stupid A' level student", "Brainless idiot", "Useless f**king maturity" etc. , it can really take a toll on anybody including me (and thanks Allah S.W.T that I've not beaten up anybody yet). Since I've started with a mindset pointing towards a change, I've accepted such criticism and tried to make a change, just to be shot with even more criticism. It came to the point that I felt that people was babysitting me altogether. It was then that I took up a stand and told them that I was capable of making decisions on my own without putting anybody into trouble. That did not helped either. I've thought that all this while, I'm considered introvert and it would be disastrous to seek help from anyone to rectify this (case example : IJC). Now that I'm here for the full-time and not "part-time" as in my schooling years, it just doesn't change anything much. I don't know what else to do or react anymore. So once again I saying this : an A' level student is not a genius and they are not warranted against any mistakes. It also means that they do have flaws and sometimes these flaws are much more bigger than those with a lesser education qualification. The A' level only means that they are good academically, not necessarily practically. Hopefully this will allow a paradigm shift in mindset among my bunkmates and platoon mates (eventhough it may all be too late). The status quo is that I'm trying to shut my mouth more often and just go with the flow. Their criticism may be right in some ways if you think about it. Accepting change is important, but when do you make your stand that what you're doing is already right?



   Within such conflicts, there were still many fun moments to treasure. From games, medical week, the jokes that had been shared, punishments that were done together...and Footdrill Comp. Footdrill Comp. saw us defending our title against the other companies in a series of footdrills and uniform inspections. A lot of time and effort was sacrificed by many and as usual, I was marked by many to c*** up during the day itself. In the end,  the whole platoon did well, including me. However, we still lose the trophy due to a poor PC phase, futile bangs and a lacklustre attempt at winning the uniform inspection. We went back with no trophy in hand and a 3rd place to be content with.


   At the end of this PTP stage, we saw everyone improved physically from the IPPT results (mine's getting closer to that pass! ;)). Passes for IPPT are getting larger in number and hopefully everyone can pass by the 13th week. The new BTP stage would see more rescue training instead of physical training. And frankly speaking, this is turning more and more like The Hunger Games in my opinion, with all the cameras, trainings, dorms, fighting to survive notion and all (of course, not inclusive of the arena and all those "fight till the death" games..). With POP getting closer, hopefully things would change from now on, insyallah. And it's only 5 more weeks to POP ohh!!!