New perspective

2010 have been a year in which I've learn and experience a lot of things. From a new life, love and even more studying stress, I've seen ample of changes within myself. So of which were good… but most of them were not so good. I do admit, although I may have the maturity of thought but I certainly do not have the maturity of experience. And hence the consequences of my actions were evident…from my results to the girl who walk out from me.

And now I've decided to set out on my own to finding myself back. No…it's not too late and it's never too late. There's a new perspective in seeing life in a different direction. Sometimes the more you chase after something, the further it gets away from you. It's time that I leave it all to fate and time and just move along. I feel even more stupid each time I came very close to getting what I want, it's just that I didn't realise that I was pushing it too far. Thus..improvements from within is what I really need right now. I want to be the same guy I was once before…Calm, focused, responsible and never a quitter. And there I was at the peak of my life where everything just came naturally to me…friends, success and sweetness of life.

There…my goal is now set…to find my identity back and to regain hope. With the A levels coming, I really want a shot at fighting back. I am certain that my abilities are enough to achieve success, its just that I am not the person I was back then. Now I just thought it felt right but the right was wrong. But somehow the intuition deep inside of me keeps telling…I will find what I'm looking for down this road…the new perspective of life. I can only try my best and push as far as I can give…but will it be enough? Only God knows.