Every step of the way

   Taking the first step is never easy, especially when you are getting up from a downfall. It becomes even harder when the lure and desire to make the same mistake all over again is constantly there in front of you. Yes  it hurts and it will always will, but when you're determine to make a difference, your mind will set itself for the change. It is totally understandable that it is easier said than done. Nobody's perfect;  your emotions, feelings and thinking may not always be predictable.  It does not matter whether we are discussing about life, career or even love, the hardest part of ending is starting again. You may be successful at the start, but that constant interference and distraction may pull you down again. We can never run from the mistakes and consequences of our past, but that in itself may be the motivation to change ourselves and move forward.

   The fight will never be over. However, what's most essential here is the fact that you are improving in the first place. As much as the pressure on you to change is concerned, nobody could ever be different overnight…at least I've never seen one before in my life. But one thing's for sure is that you will naturally see the difference you make in your life and the lives of others. Don't ever set your goals to be the best among the best…for all the fame and glory that may come with it. Like I said, the improvement is paramount here. Moreover, the higher you hope, the harder you may fall if you fail to achieve it. Have faith and let go…for sometimes letting go may take you higher.

   Sometimes love in itself may be a mistake. It may tear you apart…bring you down…and  be the venom that constantly hurts you.  Rejections , especially is something that is hard to get over. You keep on asking yourself…Where did I go wrong? Was it a mistake to express my feelings? Is it love or just a warm, fuzzy feeling inside of me? It becomes worse when you see them choosing someone over you. Who's to blame here? Was it my mistake in loving her…or the fact that she doesn't love and appreciate me the way I do inside? These questions will keep coming , and it will not stop until you realise that it was never your fault. Nobody should be blame for harboring feelings towards someone. Once again, it is never as easy as saying that there are many other fishes in the sea or for the fact that you are already destined for someone, especially if you are constantly seeing them everyday. It could be for that one moment….for that one point in time where both of you are close and opening your hearts out to each other. But sometimes it is just the fact that you already know it will never happen…you and her are never meant to be together. And all you could do is watch from afar…hoping that they will happy with the one they loved…while you pick up the pieces and move on. However, always bear in mind that your life is never over without them…for sometimes goodbye's a second chance.