Redemption

   Redeeming the past, redeeming what you've done wrong…that is the goal of everyone from before. It is universally agreed now that people can never run away from making mistakes, especially the ones that makes you regret for the rest of your life. It is never as simple as not repeating our past wrong doings. Redemption, the road to regain the trusts of others that you've lost, the pain of climbing back out from that "hole" and starting from the very beginning, the aftermath of our mistakes that will keep on haunting us every step of our life. This battle was never meant to be easy.

   It does not matter what was the mistake or how big was it, it lies in the fact of whether we are ready to mend our ways and start living our life from a different perspective. It simply does not help when you keep brooding on  the past or even wishing that you could reverse the travel of time for you to amend your mistakes. If that is the case, then talking about redemption would have been irrelevant. Like what I once explained before, our mistakes will never be too far from us. Sometimes that mistake would be the distraction, impeding us from moving on in life. Sometime the consequences of a past mistakes is still felt by us, continuously hurting us like a venom in our blood.

   To me, love was my mistake. After making a huge mistake last year by pushing too far and confessing my feelings towards the wrong girl…the girl who will never love or appreciate me for who I am or what I've done, I am ready to move on. But likewise, the effects of that mistake will always be there. Constantly seeing her everywhere and claiming that we are still "friends" but still as cold as if we are strangers, my mistake  would always follow me around. It would be a lie if I claimed that I've moved on completely. I mean the pain is still there…like an closed wound that takes a long time to heal. Because of love, everything that I'm doing before turns out to be a mistake. This is why I've wanted to redeem myself. I've lost the trust of the people whom supported me all this while and I've paid the price of my mistakes. I just wanted my life to be better.

   Redemption is in itself a long and hard process of finding yourself again…regaining your life back. It may seem to be hard at first, but the constant preserving for the life you've once had would pay off soon. Regardless of the mistake done, it is your past and it is not something that should be dragging you from achieving what you've always wanted in life.