In a blink of an eye, almost a year had passed. If there is one I've realized from the experience I faced during my first year as a freshmen in a JC, I am not ready for social life. Yet half of my heart tells me that I'm ready...ready to face the world and to experience a new life and happiness. I'm just not ready for all that.
About 10 months ago, I stepped into IJC thinking I could start afresh after a hectic but mundane life at Montfort sec. However now I wish I was in Montfort all over again. I can see the transformation in me. It is not as if I am getting any better in my studies or my attitude. I am beginning to be part of my past again. The snobbish, arrogant, in denial and thinks the world is his "me" is back. And I hated him...Because of this guy I've faced the biggest disappointment in my life at sec 2. I am becoming more and more like him
The signs are already there...not being able to let go of Facebook, being short tempered with my family, not concentrating fully on my studies and even wanting to have a girlfriend. If I don't change now...the implications could be severe. This time I could lose more than my dignity...I could lose my life. That's also why I'm gonna let her go, as she will be just a distraction in my life. I know...she doesn't want a life like mine. Yet half of my heart still hopes....
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